I'm just going to ignore the fact that my last post says "February 12- 2009" Jeeze! Yes, I've been weak, and haven't exactly stuck to my diet. To help me not drown my sorrows in a carton of ice cream over the time lost, I'm just going to say, "Better late than never." and, "If you fall off your horse, just dust yourself off, and get back on again" And that's exactly what I'm going to do!
It's time to focus on the positive, the future, and this beautiful new year.This IS the year I lose weight!
You mark my words.
For the record, I didn't go off my diet because I didn't like the food I was making. I work really hard to make tasty food when I'm on a "diet". I even continued to make some of my favorite deliciously healthy dishes, not because I was trying to lose weight, but just because I was craving them! I'd say 95% of the time I go off my diet, it's because I'm not feeling good, and therefore can't/don't want to cook. Then I have a hungry husband calling me on his way home from work asking, "What's for dinner?" Does anyone else hate that question? That's the moment I surrender to defeat and say, "Just pick something up on the way home..." The secondary problem is, once I go off a diet, I sometimes find it hard to get back on it. I fall out of the routine, and I enter the cycle of repeating to myself day after day, "I'll get back on it tomorrow..." Before you know it, I've been saying that same phrase to myself every day, for 6 months.
This time around, I'm going to work harder on developing tricks I can use to help myself. Like making meals in advance, so if I'm not feeling good I don't have to worry about cooking. This time I'm trying to be more aware of my health issues and work around them, so they won't bring me down.
I am happy to report that since "February 12- 2009" I haven't been a complete failure, and have lost 16 pounds! Never mind the fact that I gained 4lbs back ;) I've been on the diet for a week here, and a week there. Never long enough to report about it. I did come across some tasty recipes over the past year, but didn't share them because by the time I thought to, I had shamefully ate a #1 from McDonald's for dinner, and felt like a hypocrite.
BUT, I'm back on my "diet" and ready to start blogging about it again!
What's the new motivation?
Why am I so sure this will be the time I lose weight?
Over this past year that I've been absent, a lot has happened in my life.
I found out I need double knee replacements, due to my severe RA. Blurg! Before, it was that I needed them in the near future, now it's that I need them like, NOW! I simply have to wait as long as I possibly can for that major surgery. There are 2 factors in that decision: #1- My age. I'm only 22. This procedure isn't typically performed on someone as young as myself. #2- They don't last forever. If I want to be 50yrs old, and still able to walk, I need to hold off as long as I can. Losing weight will no doubt help me to win this battle.
Also, my husband and I are wanting to start a little family. YAY!! Although, I have PCOS, which is going to make getting pregnant difficult. My weight is only making matters worse. With my PCOS, I have an 80% chance of getting pregnant, and my weight isn't helping those odds. My doctor told me if I want to avoid invasive (which=expensive) procedures, and if I want to increase my chances of even being able to get pregnant, I have to lose weight.
It sounded like a challenge to me.
A fire got lit under my little (Although it's quite big) tush, and a new determination was born!
I can do this.
I will do this.
I have a lot riding on it this time around.
I invite you to take this little journey with me.
I don't know where it will take me or how long it will take, but I assure you I will be ":Deliciously Healthy", and it will be totally awesome.