Lately I've Been...

~A blog slacker. Still.

~An emotional wreck. Look at me funny, and I'll cry. My poor hubby. He's so confused. Hormones?
~Rebellious. I don't know why? If I see a brownie, I'll eat it. Why? Because I'm being rebellious. Well, and because it's yummy ;)
~Annoyed at myself. Some of the naughty little things I ate, weren't even good. I just ate them because I wanted to prove some kind of silly point. I didn't believe in myself. I think the success I've been having scared me, in some weird way. I sabotaged myself.
~1 pound heavier, due to my rebellion.
~Excited to have family come visit.
~Anxious and nervous to have family come visit. I was pushing myself to be a certain weight before my in-laws came, which resulted in me rebelling against the entire thing. If you can't beat em, join em.
~Lazy. I haven't put together a grocery list, or gone grocery shopping, which is a recipe for disaster.
~Sad. I feel like I had a pretty little vase (my healthy living, and diet plan), but I dropped it, and it shattered.
~Optimistic. I have some crazy glue, and all the little pieces from my pretty little vase. I can put it back together, and it'll look prettier then ever before! I've only had about 3 days of rebellion, and they weren't full days of bad choices. Just a bad meal here, and a bad snack there. Surely I can turn this around, right?
~Excited to cook up a healthy storm again! I'm seriously craving it! I ate a hamburger from Wendy's a couple nights ago, and that thing was seriously gross! Afterwords, I felt sick, weighed down, and I had heartburn all night! Can you say, not worth it? My taste buds have seriously changed. They've gone Deliciously Healthy, and they're never going back! ;D
~Grateful. For the support my husband gives me. How he believes in me, even when I don't.
For my blog readers, who I heart!

Things I've learned:

~ I have to believe in myself. Nobody else can do this but me. I have to be on my side, be my own cheerleader, and do this for me. Like I said before, I didn't even want to eat some of the things I ate. I simply wanted to sabotage myself. Why? Because I didn't believe in myself.

~Not putting together a grocery list, and going grocery shopping, is like totally stupid. I need to plan out my meals, and stick to them.

~I need to blog more. It lifts me up, and holds me accountable.

~One mistake leads to the next. It started out small. Not doing something I should have, or eating a tiny little piece of something I shouldn't have. Before I knew it, my bad decisions were getting bigger, more disruptive, and I was headed to Wendy's. I need to recognize when I'm getting off track, even if it's just a tiny little step, and do what's needed to make sure I stay ON track.

And there you have it folks. I've been bad. I had one of those stupid rocks in my path, and it totally made me trip! I've dusted myself off, and I'm continuing on, hoping no one saw...that's always embarrassing ;) After all, this is one of the most important walks of my life. It's beautiful, and it has many, many rewards along the way. A little rock isn't going to take those away from me.

I'm going to have a very Deliciously Healthy weekend, and I hope you all do too! ;D