About Moi

About Moi
My Name is Brittany, and I'm 23yrs old. I was diagnosed with Lupus when I was 15, and then diagnosed with RA, when I was 18. I also got married when I was 18, and I'm enjoying my happily ever after with my hubby! When I got married, I was slim and trim...But not for long. After getting married, I started to gain a LOT of weight! In 1yr, I gained 50lbs! Finally, I went to the Doctor, where I discovered I have low thyroid. After being put on medicine, my weight gain slowed down, although over the next 3yrs, I gained an additional 26lbs. When I was 20yrs old, I got yet another diagnoses of Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. That's 4 diagnoses in a 5yr period, if you lost count. They all effect my weight, in one way or another. Add on top of that, my love affair with food, and every 1 of those 76lbs gained was accounted for. Being 76lbs over weight is unhealthy for anyone, but it was especially unhealthy for me, and my health issues. Since starting this blog, in Jan-2010, I have lost 40lbs! I'm a new, slimmer, and healthier me! Before losing weight, I was told I needed knee replacements. Losing weight was the ONLY tool I had to help me hold off on that life changing surgery. Since losing 40lbs, my knees have never felt better! My husband and I are also trying to start a family, but my PCOS was not going to make it as easy as 1,2,3, as I didn't have periods on my own. My doctor had told me if I wanted a baby, I HAD to lose weight. Since losing 40lbs, I've had regular cycles for the first time in my life! Which is very important when trying to have a baby ;) This journey of mine is more than me simply wanting to wear skinny jeans. It has been a quest to becoming :Deliciously Healthy, so ALL of my dreams can come true! I'm almost half way there! With each new day, I get closer and closer to my goal of 120lbs, and becoming :Deliciously Healthy!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

My 29 pound reality check- Starting over

Last March I decided that weighing myself was doing more harm then good. Only losing 1 pound (or less) a week, sent me straight to a carton of ice cream. I had decided that I simply needed to live my healthy lifestyle, and not obsess about how slow the scale was moving. Stepping off the scale really worked. For a while. It worked when I was staying on track. I knew I was losing weight, but I was protecting myself from getting discouraged about how long it was taking. However, it didn't work when I was eating donuts and ice cream. At that point it turned into a way for me to be in denial that the junk I was eating was making me fat. That denial is exactly what's been going on for the past couple months.

Last week, I had a doctors appointment. I normally look away when they're weighing me, but I decided it was time to get out of denial, and get back in touch with reality.

In the back of my mind, I figured I had probably gained 10, maybe even 20 pounds. But what I saw on the scale that day at the doctors office, was that I had gained 29 pounds. I am now 190. The lowest I had gotten down to on this weight loss journey was 161.

For the past week I've been trying to decide where to go from here.

Here's how I see it:
I can either cry about it. Curl up into a ball and eat a cheeseburger, and be back up to 206+ pounds in no time. Or, I can pick myself up, and get back on the horse. I can stop thinking about yesterdays mistakes, and focus on the future... The future where I only have one chin, and no muffin top.

I choose the latter of the two. In the grand scheme of things, it's just 29 pounds. It's not like I went and gained all my weight back. Or more. I'm making a promise to myself that I will never see 206 on the scale ever again. And I am taking the appropriate steps to keeping that promise. Even though it would be easier to just throw in the towel, and fully embrace my old eating habits.

To help whip my butt back into shape, I'm doing something a little different. I'm going on
The 17 Day Diet. I've heard lots of success stories on other weight loss blogs, and I'm really excited to try it. It's 3 cycles of 17 days (51 days total), and then I will be back to my :Deliciously Healthy way of losing weight from there.

Tomorrow is day 1. I'm going to blog each and every day, while on the 17 day diet. This blog helped me to lose weight in the beginning. I've always said that I wouldn't have been able to lose the weight I had lost without my blog, and my readers. The support and accountability that comes from my blog, are more valuable to me then any weight loss plan, magic pill, or infomercial selling some exercise thingy-ma-bob. When I stopped doing weekly weigh-ins, I lost some of that accountability. So, I'm bring them back! Tuesdays are my weigh in days.

This is my "starting" picture.
190lbs:
Tomorrow is day 1 of getting my sexy back. I kinda can't wait :)

8 comments:

Melissa said...

I have been off the wagon for the last couple of weeks & have gained a few pounds. Not many... but if i don't do something soon, i'll be back to where i started! Good for you for not dwelling on mistakes, but choosing to get back to healthy eating! :)

Hally Bell said...

Must of been something about the summer. While my measurements are the same, I gained 8 lbs this summer and into last week when I too went to the doctor. I thought "oh well, maybe 2-3 lbs, I havent been eating horribly!" Nope, a little bit more than that. Oh well, after I heal from some out patient surgery, I'll hit the pavement again. Can't wait, and glad to hear from you again!!!

Bella said...

I'm so glad that you faced the number on the scale and put it all into perspective. I have every confidence that your attitude and your actions will lead you to success.

As you know I'm really close to one of my own weight goals, and I'm pushing to lose this last little bit, so I am VERY interested in this new diet you're trying. I'll be following right along with you. (And I might even join in).

NAN said...

How ironic- I started the 17 day diet 2 weeks ago and have lost about 11 pounds. I drink the kefir everyday and try to make sure I have another probiotic serving. My meals are mainly green with a little meat! I baked today but it's all for tomorrow. I ate too much Halloween candy and then my birthday was 11/7 so the timing was right. I will say I have eaten a bit off plan but not really any junk. I am trying to NOT think about food!!!!

Kat said...

I think the key is doing what you need to do in order to feel accountable. Obviously if blogging every day is what's going to help, then we will all be here to support you in this journey!

erica said...

I am trying to get my sexy back as well! We can definitely be each others support system! xo

Carina said...

I feel like every time I break up with my scale, bad things happen. For me now, I weigh most days. Weekly and monthly was almost tougher because I'd expect to see a bigger change, but daily, I never expect much movement -- but a daily number is enough to ring little alarm bells if it's a daily upward trend instead of steady or (ideally) downward. As much as I hate seeing the number sometimes, I've just come to accept that daily weighs work best for me.

Mommy Minded said...

I will so read everyday! ;)