About Moi

About Moi
My Name is Brittany, and I'm 23yrs old. I was diagnosed with Lupus when I was 15, and then diagnosed with RA, when I was 18. I also got married when I was 18, and I'm enjoying my happily ever after with my hubby! When I got married, I was slim and trim...But not for long. After getting married, I started to gain a LOT of weight! In 1yr, I gained 50lbs! Finally, I went to the Doctor, where I discovered I have low thyroid. After being put on medicine, my weight gain slowed down, although over the next 3yrs, I gained an additional 26lbs. When I was 20yrs old, I got yet another diagnoses of Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. That's 4 diagnoses in a 5yr period, if you lost count. They all effect my weight, in one way or another. Add on top of that, my love affair with food, and every 1 of those 76lbs gained was accounted for. Being 76lbs over weight is unhealthy for anyone, but it was especially unhealthy for me, and my health issues. Since starting this blog, in Jan-2010, I have lost 40lbs! I'm a new, slimmer, and healthier me! Before losing weight, I was told I needed knee replacements. Losing weight was the ONLY tool I had to help me hold off on that life changing surgery. Since losing 40lbs, my knees have never felt better! My husband and I are also trying to start a family, but my PCOS was not going to make it as easy as 1,2,3, as I didn't have periods on my own. My doctor had told me if I wanted a baby, I HAD to lose weight. Since losing 40lbs, I've had regular cycles for the first time in my life! Which is very important when trying to have a baby ;) This journey of mine is more than me simply wanting to wear skinny jeans. It has been a quest to becoming :Deliciously Healthy, so ALL of my dreams can come true! I'm almost half way there! With each new day, I get closer and closer to my goal of 120lbs, and becoming :Deliciously Healthy!

Monday, May 14, 2012

No use crying over spilled milk

This has always been one of my favorite motto's. To me, it means: What's done is done. You can't change it, and there's nothing you can do. So why cry about it? Just move on, and look to the future with a smile on your face.

Why I haven't been able to apply this to my weight loss journey, I have no idea. 

I was doing fantastic with the 17 day diet in December. I went from 190 to 176 in less then a month. Then I don't know what the bleep happened, but I fell way off track. I got so frustrated and angry at myself for gaining 2...5...10... pounds, that I punished myself by eating junk. I knew I was hurting myself... and really, that's exactly what I wanted to do. It has been a viscous cycle of gaining, punishing, gaining, punishing, gaining... for the past 3 months.

I've realized that I need to forgive myself, and stop punishing myself for yesterday's mistakes. I need to stop crying over the silly milk that spilled, and move on. I can't change what I've done, nor get back the time that I've wasted, but I can do better from here.

So right now I'm in the middle of cleaning up my mess, and learning to let it go.

8 comments:

Kelly said...

It's def a battle, but a battle worth fighting for! You can do this and I'm looking forward to blog posts!

Let's do this chick!

Kelly @ Journey to a New Me

Gi said...

Its great that you have owned up to your mistakes and you are back to blogging. Tackling a slip can be scary and it shows great courage!
Keep up the amazing work you will get there :)
xx

Bella said...

Girlie, no one knows this battle better than I do, believe me. The only thing to do is just to keep on moving forward, which it sounds like you're doing. Keep that spilled milk saying in mind every day, and before long, you'll have a string of successes to spur you on. And if you have "a moment," just move on quickly.

Easier said than done, but I know you (we) can do it.

Kat said...

Self-forgiveness and acceptance is the hardest part of this journey. Forgive yourself, but don't forget - use it as motivation to move forward and stronger.

Ronald Dean said...

I know how annoying and frustrating it is with trying losing the same pounds you JUST spent months burning off. But, at least we can move forward with the confidence that we've done it before. And....you might be able to put your finger on what initially cracked you. I've found that I HAVE to have a reward system or I will fail. Good luck!
-Ronald Dean
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TIM said...

After reading your story and this article i have felt like i have just read my own story. I have reproductive issues too and i believe that they contribute to my unintended weight gain sometimes. If there is a problem i have dealt with over and over it is weight gain. Despite my struggle with weight i prefer living my life without past regrets. I do whatever is in power to stay healthy just like you. I wish you the best in everything you do. You are still a very young and beautiful woman

Melissa said...

Thank you so much for being brave enough to write and be totally transparent, as far as your weightloss challenge goes. I'm so sorry that you've had to deal so much this health issues that have effected so many other aspects of your health. Some people do have it harder than others as far as losing weight is concerned. But, you can do it! Even though it's hard, you can. And you are!! I'm going to share your blog with my clients. I know many of them will be able to be inspired by you at the same time they relate to you. Question. How have you been able to lose the initial weight? What was working for you? Not working? I think I can learn from your experiences so I can help my clients.

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