About Moi

About Moi
My Name is Brittany, and I'm 23yrs old. I was diagnosed with Lupus when I was 15, and then diagnosed with RA, when I was 18. I also got married when I was 18, and I'm enjoying my happily ever after with my hubby! When I got married, I was slim and trim...But not for long. After getting married, I started to gain a LOT of weight! In 1yr, I gained 50lbs! Finally, I went to the Doctor, where I discovered I have low thyroid. After being put on medicine, my weight gain slowed down, although over the next 3yrs, I gained an additional 26lbs. When I was 20yrs old, I got yet another diagnoses of Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. That's 4 diagnoses in a 5yr period, if you lost count. They all effect my weight, in one way or another. Add on top of that, my love affair with food, and every 1 of those 76lbs gained was accounted for. Being 76lbs over weight is unhealthy for anyone, but it was especially unhealthy for me, and my health issues. Since starting this blog, in Jan-2010, I have lost 40lbs! I'm a new, slimmer, and healthier me! Before losing weight, I was told I needed knee replacements. Losing weight was the ONLY tool I had to help me hold off on that life changing surgery. Since losing 40lbs, my knees have never felt better! My husband and I are also trying to start a family, but my PCOS was not going to make it as easy as 1,2,3, as I didn't have periods on my own. My doctor had told me if I wanted a baby, I HAD to lose weight. Since losing 40lbs, I've had regular cycles for the first time in my life! Which is very important when trying to have a baby ;) This journey of mine is more than me simply wanting to wear skinny jeans. It has been a quest to becoming :Deliciously Healthy, so ALL of my dreams can come true! I'm almost half way there! With each new day, I get closer and closer to my goal of 120lbs, and becoming :Deliciously Healthy!

Monday, March 28, 2011

Living without the scale, and an NSV

For the past week and a half, I haven't been weighing myself.

My weight loss has been slow. slash non-existent. slash very frustrating over the past 6 months.
Yes, 6 whole months.

After losing 40 pounds, my weight loss went form a nice steady walk, where I would lose 2 pounds a week, to a painfully slow crawl, where I would only lose .5 to maybe 1 pound a week. I tried cutting down on my sugar intake, which didn't seem to help. Then I started the low glycemic index diet and ate cleaner, but that still didn't help the scale move any faster.

A vicious cycle followed:
I would do great on my diet for 3-4 days, step on the scale and see that I had only lost 1 pound after 4 days of perfect eating. Then I would get frustrated, and eat poorly for the next 2 days. I would of course gain a pound from my recent eating tantrum... so I would go back on my diet, do great for 3-4 days, lose only one pound, get frustrated, eat, gain back a pound, and so on and so forth. 1 step forward, 1 step back. 1 step forward, one step back. This went on for way too many months, which is why I am still 165 pounds. This was all caused by my frustration with the scale moving slowly. That frustration would cause me to go on and off my diet, losing a pound, and gaining it back, for the past 6 months. Where as if I had just come to terms with my new (slow) pace of weight loss, at losing .5 to 1 pound a week, I would have lost 12-24 pounds by now. That is a heck of a lot better then 0.

My solution: Stop weighing myself.

There are so many reasons why I need to live this healthy lifestyle:
  • I need to be :Deliciously Healthy, so I can have a baby.
  • I am borderline diabetic, and refuse to ever be diabetic.
  • My PCOS puts me at a higher risk of having heart disease, and of course, diabetes.
  • I need to be as healthy as I can be to combat my Lupus.
  • Because of my RA, I need knee replacements. Being the healthiest I can be, will no doubt help me to hold off on replacements for as long as possible, as it already has.

So, whether I am trying to lose weight or not, I need to live and eat healthy. This is my new lifestyle. I don't know why I have been forgetting that.

My new focus is on eating healthy (low glycemic diet), drinking lots of water, and exercising. To be healthy. I've been doing those things already, of course, but the focus has changed.
It is no longer on the scale. Losing weight will naturally follow my healthy lifestyle. I don't need to keep checking in on it, and risk letting frustration with the scale, drive me to donuts.

I have been doing this for about a week and a half now. I have been doing better then I have in a long time. I haven't been going on and off my diet anymore. I am finally consistent again. Living one healthy day, after the next, and loving it. I am now doing this to simply be healthy, and that stupid scale doesn't mess up my progress.

We have two scales in our house (one in each of the upstairs bathrooms). I haven't moved them, or hid them. They are both still on the bathroom floor, right next to the toilet. I walk past them everyday, and don't give them a second thought.

I can feel that I've lost weight in the past week and a half, but I don't know how much, and I like that.

With all that said, it's the perfect time for a NSV (non-scale victory), wouldn't you say?

My husband left for a couple days on a business trip, and left half a pizza sitting in our fridge. I had a decision to make:
To eat the pizza, or not to eat the pizza?

I chose not to.

And to make sure I stuck with my decision, I threw the rest of the pizza in the trash.We can do this. One healthy decision at a time.


SociallyGreen said...

You're such a strong person. Everyone has a different way of thinking, but you've had your ups and downs and the strength definitely shows.

I don't weigh myself because I'm tall, and I have curves, and I'm not a skinny 20 year old anymore. I've realized that I have this body to create life. I just have to stay on the right track and stay active.

The baby journey can be a tough one. We will try in the next 6 months. I think by seeing what you're going through, I feel like I'm not the only one who has struggles. Thanks for sharing your journey with us. You can do it!! ;)

Renee Paj said...

YES! I love that...one healthy decision at a time. As for the scale, I could never do that. I am so good at denial, I need to know what I am doing is either working or not. Even if it is painstakingly slow. But everybody is different! Good luck...hope banishing the scale works out for you!!

erica said...

It only takes one healthy decision at a time and you`ll be doing fabulous. I need to remove the scale in my home. I am constantly stepping on it!


Bella said...

What a positive attitude you have in this post - and you're so right - it's all one decision at a time. It sounds like your decision to skip the scale is working for you.

I have to share - I noticed my own NSV the other day: My double chin is slowly diminishing. :D

Melissa said...

I totally understand getting rid of that scale, girl! I haven't done it yet. But maybe i will. I went to the doctor yesterday about my slow weightloss. He actually thought my 23 pound loss in 15 months is good. REALLY?! That's 1/2 lb. a week! And, i wasn't even losing 1/2 a week. it was more like lose 0 pounds for 6 months, gain 4, lose 2, gain 3, lose 3, etc! SCREAM!!!!

But i'm admitting a portion-size problem, joined WW & maybe that will help....

Melissa said...

Also will be trying for a baby starting THIS cycle (which just started today). I'm so excited & yet, scared. I mean... it's so hard for so many to conceive. And i've been charting & haven't pinpointed ovulation yet. Praying!

Former Fat Bride said...

THANK YOU. I needed to hear this! I am with you 100% on forgetting the scale and just living healthy day to day! We can do this!

Kat said...

That's a HUGE NSV, lady! I'm so close to kicking the scale to the curb. I'm excited and scared to death all at once.

Jolene - EverydayFoodie said...

Good for you for tossing the pizza if you knew it would take you off track!!

Also, I think not weighing oneself is a very smart idea.

In regard to your comment on my blog, I also keep a glass of water by my bed :-)

kristi said...

You go, girl!! I am gonna send you a friend invite on FB...Kristi Crawford Armstrong.