About Moi

About Moi
My Name is Brittany, and I'm 23yrs old. I was diagnosed with Lupus when I was 15, and then diagnosed with RA, when I was 18. I also got married when I was 18, and I'm enjoying my happily ever after with my hubby! When I got married, I was slim and trim...But not for long. After getting married, I started to gain a LOT of weight! In 1yr, I gained 50lbs! Finally, I went to the Doctor, where I discovered I have low thyroid. After being put on medicine, my weight gain slowed down, although over the next 3yrs, I gained an additional 26lbs. When I was 20yrs old, I got yet another diagnoses of Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. That's 4 diagnoses in a 5yr period, if you lost count. They all effect my weight, in one way or another. Add on top of that, my love affair with food, and every 1 of those 76lbs gained was accounted for. Being 76lbs over weight is unhealthy for anyone, but it was especially unhealthy for me, and my health issues. Since starting this blog, in Jan-2010, I have lost 40lbs! I'm a new, slimmer, and healthier me! Before losing weight, I was told I needed knee replacements. Losing weight was the ONLY tool I had to help me hold off on that life changing surgery. Since losing 40lbs, my knees have never felt better! My husband and I are also trying to start a family, but my PCOS was not going to make it as easy as 1,2,3, as I didn't have periods on my own. My doctor had told me if I wanted a baby, I HAD to lose weight. Since losing 40lbs, I've had regular cycles for the first time in my life! Which is very important when trying to have a baby ;) This journey of mine is more than me simply wanting to wear skinny jeans. It has been a quest to becoming :Deliciously Healthy, so ALL of my dreams can come true! I'm almost half way there! With each new day, I get closer and closer to my goal of 120lbs, and becoming :Deliciously Healthy!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Fertility update, and being happy with me :)

In THIS post, I talked about my battle with trying to lose weight, while trying to get pregnant. In THIS post I talked about my solution to the problem. I had decided to finish up my Clomid, which would go through to the end of July. If I wasn't pregnant by July, we would take 3 months off so I could lose weight, and so we could save money for future fertility treatments.

But... My Clomid hasn't worked for the past two months. Meaning it didn't get me to ovulate. In the 4 months that I have been on Clomid, it's actually only worked once.

So... there's a new plan:
My doctor is upping my Clomid dosage, and is going to do regular ultra sounds to see what my ovaries are up to, while on the clomid. I've decided to give the Clomid one more fighting chance. I'm crossing my fingers that the clomid will work 3 months in a row, and that I will get pregnant one of those 3 months. If the clomid doesn't work in those 3 months, we will go right into the next step.

There's no longer a battle going on in my head.
My focus is on becoming a mother. If I had to choose between losing more weight, or starting our family, I would choose my family. Why the sudden change of heart? Somewhere in the past couple weeks,
I became happy with myself
.
I've become filled with gratitude for losing 45 pounds, and not being 206 pounds anymore.

Before:After: Why was that huge accomplishment not enough for me? I don't know. All I know is, I want to be a mother, and so far, I've lost 45 pounds to help make that happen.

I will of course continue with my :Deliciously Healthy lifestyle, and keep trying to lose weight until I get pregnant. And when I do become pregnant, I will have one :Deliciously Healthy pregnancy.

Thanks for listening to all of my fertility talk :)

13 comments:

Red Deception said...

Your deliciously healthy journey will lead you to so many fulfilling paths. Losing even 10% of a woman's weight improves her odds of concieving! With the Clomid, hopefully you will reach your dream of becoming a Mommy :)

NAN said...

I can't wait until you announce it but remember.....you are YOUNG! I had my first baby at age 24 and third planned one at 39. You write so well- have you considered going back to school? Of course, then you will be pregnant but education IMO is never a loss! My little sister finished nursing school 9 months pregnant and she had 2 older sons besides but managed to do it all. She was 38!

*Whitney* said...

Awww! This post makes me smile!! :-D

safire said...

Great positive post! You look fabulous in the after picture. I love that baby blue on you :)

Good luck with everything!

dawne said...

You look amazing and being happy with yourself is the way to live! Baby needs you happy too. I am praying that God will bless you with your heart's desire.

Sean, Jen, Carson and Addie said...

You SHOULD be proud of what you have accomplished and for losing 45 pounds, that is amazing!! You look beautiful (you always have, though) and you are going to be a great mommy. We're rooting for you and hoping the clomid works this time!

Chubby McGee said...

The little one that you want so bad is merely on his/her own schedule. It's up to him/her to pick when he/she makes the move into your uterus. It'll happen. Don't stress. Just go with the flow and wait. ;)

Becky said...

My doctor upped my clomid all the way to 250 mg with my 4th child for it to work. I hope all goes well with the higher dose.

Melissa said...

I am so glad you are happy with yourself & all you have accomplished so far!! You have made tons of progress & look awesome as you are. :) I cannot wait to hear that you are expecting!!! :)

The Ninja said...

I -love- that picture of you, you are such a cutie, and I'm totes jealous of your awesome hair.

I'm glad you decided to focus on your family, it's such a wonderful feeling to be a mother and while it's never what you expect it's always more than you could have ever hoped for.

Mommy Minded said...

You are stunning!

Bella said...

You look amazing, and you should be very happy with where you are now. I think you're making the right decision for yourself, and maybe once you relax the pressure a bit, it will make getting pregnant a bit easier. It can't hurt, right? I'll be thinking positive, baby bump thoughts for you!!

Corletta said...

You're doing so well! You've got a great attitude to match!!! Keep a postin...I'm reading :)